ack! I'm sick of leftovers already and on the hunt for something else, anything but leftovers again, I can't take anymore!! I have watched people post their Christmas tree photos on Facebook and I gave it my all but just ended up in a heap of Christmas lights on the floor crying like a baby. I had to just leave it all on the floor, walk away and regroup. I have so very much to be thankful for but just cannot find the Christmas spirit that I so miss right now. my father gone, my mother gone, sister's and brothers who are too selfish to care and now my baby girl wont be here this Christmas. she will come by every now and then but it's not the same as when she lived with us. I took a week off from work to do Thanksgiving and maybe do some shopping not to mention the quality time I would get to spend with my boys but it just has not done a damn thing for me! I do Not want to go back to work (may see me on the streets) and I am just overall in a humbug kinda mood. boys go back to school tommorow so ill get some time to myself but for what? I don't feel like doing anything ....anyway til something good happens, bah freaking humbug!!!
